Faced with a tough decision.
I've just been told by my cousins that they would like me to move to Arizona.
Tammy, the one who initiated this, claims that I should be close to family, and that they miss me.
Brian said he'd be more than happy if I moved down.
Greg said I should move down so I can see them more often.
That's what my cousins said.
My mom said I should seriously consider it; that Arizona is a beautiful place and that it's not TOO far from where she lives (she lives in California).
My grandmother, who lives in Mesa, AZ, said I should do what my heart tells me to.
What do I think? I'm not sure. That's all I can really say. I don't know. It's really hard living alone up here in Washington, with no friends or family nearby, and my only social outlet being through the internet. I have nothing in particular tying me here: no job, no significant other, no school. My one fear about moving to Arizona revolves around my grandmother: she's getting older, and less able to care for herself. To hear my cousins (and her two surviving children) tell it, they'd rather put her in assisted living. I wonder if the TRUE reason my cousins want me to move nearby is they want me to take care of her so they can forget about it. A little side note here: my aunt (the mother of my three cousins) has terminal cancer and is alarmingly close to death. Hence... my cousins are losing their mother, my grandmother is losing her daughter, and once that happens I kinda doubt my grandma will want to go on much longer (she's already lost a son - my dad - this year). I'm trying to be rational about this and realize that it is, ultimately, my choice. But I'm really, really at a loss here as to whether it's the right thing to do.
Should I move?