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For a friend that I love(d).
Published on November 12, 2004 By CraigAlan In Life Journals
You could always make me laugh.
That was the most important part.
No matter how bad life got, no matter how tough my day had been, no matter what I was thinking, you could always make me laugh. Or at least smile.

You knew me better than I knew myself.
You dared to understand me, to accept me, to deal with my inconsistencies.
You gave me a chance to be me, and to be happy with who I really am.

You loved me, and though you were afraid, you told me how you felt.
I believe(d) you, even though I don't know where you are now; but, I don't blame you for leaving.
You saw the best and the worst of me and still you were my friend. My only true friend.

I had to tell you the truth, whatever damage it did. I couldn't live with myself and the lie.
Whether you read the letter, or whether you got it yet, I do not know.
I'm the one who said goodbye.

This may be the end, I do not want it but it must be.
You do not need pity me, nor pursue me, nor do anything out of the ordinary.
My only wish is that you go in peace, and with fond memories.

I will always love you, and though it's a cliche, it's true.
My heart will never heal, but I don't want that to be a burden to you.
I pray that you go on, and never be afraid to be yourself.

You will have a great life, and do wonderful things.
As for me, who knows? Perhaps I'm doomed to remain unloved.
(After all, I bring it upon myself).

Think not of me or my fate, only think of yours.
For you, the world is an oyster. Make your mark, and be happy.
If you do this, I can safely say that I made a difference.

By being your friend, helping you to understand.
I try not to sound selfish, but I think I had some kind of an effect.
Even though I know that, in a few years, you'll forget all about me.

I do not mean this as a guilt trip, or the way it sounds.
It's a simple fact of life, and moving on from the past.
Something I've never been able to do.

So look forward, friend that I love(d), and worry not.
The future holds many things for you, so do not be afraid.
Whether you succeed or fail depends on you.

I close this now, but know that I will never forget you.
I will always miss you.
That's all I can really say.

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